Family, People, Personal, Pray, Thought

Doa Untuk Abang

People said, words came out of your mouth is a simple form of pray;
People said, things we have in our mind regarding those people around us, are simply an unspoken prayer;
I believe that God heard every single thing, from prayers we screamed out of our lungs, to those little whispers we said in the middle of our loneliness, or at night when no one could hear you
Well, I decided to take chance to write this post for my one and only older brother i have 🙂

Untuk Abangku tersayang,
Abang terbaik, terpinter, terganteng yang pernah ada di hidup gue,
Abang terbawel, tercemburuan, tersupel yang paling ngangenin
All i ever dreamed of for my future-husband to look like,

Now you live on your own, for the first time of your life, so distance from your usual life in those easy life you have before. It took times, maybe not as instant as you wanted to be, to get used to live this way. I know it’s hard, as i know how your huge social circle is in this big city we called home. I know how you LOVE urban life, and how you hate places with no network connection, now all i can hear now is you yelling, calling names of those provider who gave you crappy internet connection when you need to send something to your friends. I’m laughing hysterically as i write this…

But i also know how easy you socialize with someone new. How people love being around you, hearing tons of your jokes as well as feeling secure with your protective side of you. I know how you can stay out late till morning with dozens of friends with completely opposite personality, and you do it as easy as flipping back hands, while i found it hard to accomplish, let alone to make them as long-time best friend for life. I know how smart you are buried behind those bad-boy look you have.

You are the one who shows me that people can actually grow. You no longer that young boy who stay up late out of nowhere, making Moms and Dads worried as hell, calculated every single horrible probability about where or what you’re doing those time. Now you turned into this responsible man, always calm me down when i have this annoying nerve that comes out of nowhere, spreading anger and hates everywhere, when back in the days, I used to be the one who calmed you down.

Here’s a little pray for you:

May God give you strength, to take chances and decision on your life, and believe in it.
May God open your mind to always dreams, and have faith in the power within you
May He bless you with warm smiles everyday, so that you always, always believe that life is not as crappy as you might think it is
May He strengthen your feet, on your path to achieve every dreams you mind, and tighten His hand on yours while you shaken up when things gone rough
May distance won’t ever made you weak, instead open your eyes to separate those who stays, and those who don’t
May each day, people fond of you and your charms, and find the true kindness I see in your eyes every single day since the day we were destined to be siblings 🙂

Have tons and TONS of lucks, Bang Andrew!
Go run, and achieve those dreams flew around your head ❤ ❤
I love you my annoying brother so much, damn sometimes it hurts!

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One Thing You Won’t Ever Regret Getting

Name one thing you won’t ever regret getting, on the range of you were born to this very minute:

My father’s decision to put me on English course from I was just 7/8 years old.

I remember soooo well, my Dad (with his super limited English capability, or as we may say close to 0 due to his nonexistence English lesson back when he’s in elementary school) put me on this english course class named LIA since i was just in my first grade of elementary school, about 7 years old I think. Elementary school in my era is mostly consisted of these activities: go to school, eat garbage, and watch cartoons.  To add more, those day cartoon are placed in every time slt and every channel in television. My ass are hardly moved from sofa, eyes staring to TV screen probably 5-7 hours a day.

But among all dads in my elementary school, my Dad insisted that I HAVE TO go to this course, 2 times a week, without slacking. Note to NO SLACKING. And yes, my father is an uptight person, so when he sid no slacking, it means as it is. So when my friends every morning told me stories about the cartoon plot they watched yesterday night, I’m miserable as hell to be pushed to go to this course, which really exhausting because it took my night away and the place is really far from my house. My father always send messages to my mom, to remind her for picking me up every day to go to this course, and going mad if my mother can’t. I can feel my mother is tired too, having her own work AND this responsibility to take me to this course. If my mother too tired to pick me up, my father will rush himself from work, through this sick Jakarta traffic jam, and pick me up.

I remember, those miserable years, I was mad at my father for pushing me through this sick schedule, loosing my chance to brag to my friends about watching popular cartoons on TV, and for making me unable to play with my neighbors everyday (which I think the only thing I consider important those days). But my father keep insisting, and as he rarely get mad at me, he will in terms of me not going to this course.

This schedule continue on until I was in my senior year in high school, with national exam heading above me, he still think that it is proper for me to get English Course, still 2 times a week.

After I graduated from high school and move to other city, living by my own, I just realized that this decision my Dad made, the ultimate decision that made him the “uptight” person in my family, the decision that sometimes made him and my mother getting into a fight, is the best decision he made in terms of educating his children.

I would never earn those 100 notes on every English national exam I took if I kept insisting on dissing this course

I would never earn those A on my high school report if my father gave up pushing me around for this course

I would never earn those TOEFL marks that made me experienced the most unforgettable experience of my life on living abroad

I would never earn this place on my office if I got my English test really badly, having no clue whatsoever on what pages with foreign language is all about

I would never able to write and present my thesis on English, and maybe never realized the impact and the satisfaction of finally finishing those.

I would never even simply read these novels I kept stacking, with every words typed on English language

I would be miserable.

My Dad is always, always been the person I looked up to in terms of education.

He is the most high determinant person I’ve ever encounter, maybe people can’t see it with his not-over-the-top achievements, but I ALWAYS see it in every decision he made on my education, whether to push me on accelerated class, to go to this expensive school which we barely afford and I was so ashamed for not reaching my dad’s dream, or to simply pushing me around for going to English course.

To make him proud, is my everyday job from today to the rest of my life, and I am well-beyond proud to say and bear this honorable task.

His decision, even though most of the times made him fight my mother, is the one thing that made me who I am right now.

Danke schon, mein lieb Vater ❤