Discovery, Europe, Germany, Health, Hope, Human, Human Project, Indonesia, Life, Medicine, Uncategorized

Angel of Death

I was about to write this a couple weeks ago, when a small gathering brought up old news to the table: the chaotic situation of healthcare industry.

The fake vaccines, the ill-fated doctors, messed up hospital administration, supported by the bubble of new registries in medicine school (which has no credible accreditation, just a promise of graduation paper and title of eligible medicine graduate) have just blown my mind.

I’m petrified to learn that people, even in the most ‘angelic’ industry, played fate on others life like it’s just a piece of meat.



Fake vaccines, same as lots of other unregistered medicine circulated in this country, has proved how this industry has an incredibly weak foundation while holding whole nation’s fate at his hands. As one of the people under this foundation, truthfully I was concerned and sadly, trusted nothing.

If vaccines, which got injected to most of the children in Indonesia, got hijacked, I wonder how easily my daily dose of vitamin c, or paracetamol to my headache, got smudged or even poisoned with unknown substance. I was living in the big city, yet got ‘deceived’, so how was the fate of other children in the most remote area, who only got their medicine from specific pharmacy, listened to one unregistered local doctor?

They know nothing, paid everything, yet received nothing.


Where is government, or ministry, or whatever they called to supervise this mess around pharmacology? Was medicine supposedly needed a strict regulation, from the production, distribution, until it reached its final users? Medicine, as I quoted from local newspaper, was chemical substances with pharmacological reaction, which can cause either improvement or damages on human races.

Were doctors and nurses even understood what kind of substances they used?



Ill-fated doctor was another case.

I understand quite frankly, that healthcare industry is a complex matter; everyday new symptoms from the evolution of human genetics come to the surface, but hey, enough with the excuse! People (I mean, millions of people) paid this industry whole lot of money. Have we heard enough improvisation, or enough scientists (not just doctors, I meant those expert who DID research) do enough research? This line of ‘smartest’ people in this nation has been paid a LOT of money, they HAVE TO do their extended job AND research more than ordinary people with ordinary job. I have one grandmother who deceased lately, with one of the main reason was doctor getting their national holiday and could not provide their services.

Have they learned that people’s life has no holiday? These hearts would not stop their beat, even when we pray or sleep.

This just one case in thousands of thousands cases in this industry. Every person has their own personal dreadful experiences.


Sometimes I was thinking how scary it is to know that from the beginning, we have no idea what are those substance that coming through our throat. Healthcare industry was one of the most complicated industries, so commoners like us could not easily understood from the start: the diagnosed, script of medicine we got, how much money we spent, and how those ‘expert’ judgment worth our money, yet we gave our life on this handful of people.

To add the horror, one book I read lately, The Good Nurse, basically told story about nurse who had mental problems, yet still working in healthcare industry for years, messing with patients medications in sober condition, caused death of hundreds of people under his supervisions, all because patients DON’T understand what was injected to their veins. Hospitals and doctors, not even care.

Really, the craziest people were coming right from the doors of this industry.



I’m trying to find how this tangle could end, and I came to these comparisons.

Compared to European countries, I’ve sensing what was “messing” with this industry.

In Indonesia, Doctors were God.

In Europe, Doctors were Human.

In Germany, for example, doctors has no shame to open a book, take a moment to do their research in their personal library, or even do their research on the inter web, asking other professional experiences on the same cases.

They knew human mind DO mistakes, and they were indeed humans too.

They knew a symptoms could mean thousands different kind of sickness. By researching, or even without shame asking advice from others (in front of their patients), they knew they could minimize these common mistakes. Most of the time, they could only handle 8-10 patients a day, because 1 patients with ‘headache, stomachache, cough’ could take them an hour of deep analysis.

What I appreciated most on how these western doctors did elaborate their diagnoses, is how they showed us commoners how their decision were taken right from the resources (books, expertise). This shows us how they treated us as equal, not some commoners who knew nothing, understood nothing, yet trusted everything. They even explain how the expenses they asked us to pay were coming from: how much their diagnoses valued (this differed on how complicated our sickness were), why they choose certain medicine and how much they costs.

They valued us as King.

Different in Indonesia when Doctors were valued as King and worst, God.

God KNEW everything, and didn’t have to do the ‘read and study’ like commoners did. Headache means headache, stomachache means diarrhea, and cough means inflammations. This wheal goes on and on, spinning around without explanation. Yet, Doctors got one of the highest paying jobs in the country.



Well, I could not blame this entire chaos to Doctors or those who worked on this industry. We did not have health ministry just to sit around and do nothing. And for the record, our pharmacology has a respected position in the world for having a complex regulation. But did this regulation get implemented once and for all? Give people a throughout explanation on the difference between medicines whether they were expensive or cheap, show them that medicines that coming through your supervisions were trustable, so when they earned your trusts, those illegal or ‘herbal’ medicine were banished naturally.

Show consistency on how you fought illegality and supervise the circulations of medicine.

Show people that you deserved their trusts.




To all people who worked in this industry:

May you find your inner willingness to treat first, not to ask; to find a solution with careful examination, not to rush things; to always bring comfort to people with right judgment and explanations. And most importantly: to NEVER EVER stop learning, because the faith of this nation is right within your hand.

Crisis, Daily, Life, Love, People, Resolution, Uncategorized


I wish:

1. This childish part of me would be disappeared, not instantly but day by day. Stop being an ignorant brat; do everything much faster than I was before; most importantly to be able to think about others first than mine.
2. I could sectioned my head to dozens counterparts that work individually, so that I could think million different things at the same time.
3. I have nerves to do, to speak, to act as what my head asked me to do.
4. My head could operate rationally once in a while. Especially when Life doesn’t need your heart to take part on making decision.
5. I could be the reason for someone’s happiness, the source of somebody’s laugh, the one that relieve pains. It doesn’t need to be major, small things do have impact even just tiny little bit.

I’m good at making lists.
Terrible at turning it to reality.

Amaze, Culture, History, Japan, Random, Thought

Baby Lion

Welcome, to a high-pressured-high-caffeine-extremely-sleepy kind of afternoon.

So, this last couple of days, while I’m spinning for inspiration, i impulsively got so amazed with this tiny country called Japan.
Why so random?
I don’t know, maybe the search for reasons of this crazy economic hazardous crisis lead to a new discovery of this wonder country.

Have you ever wondered, how despite severe recessions and crises along with periodically natural disaster, Japan stands still as strong opponent in world industrialized competition with relatively stable and free political situation compared to other leading nations and yet still culturally rich?

Not to mention, how they could combine so perfectly: the core oriental value they learned from China, slowly Americanized without being American in time of USA colonialization, yet also not extremely late to the latest Europeanization bandwagon that happened, I believed, almost around the world.
They seemed to be able to imitate, adapt and most importantly, improved the idea they soak from these giant countries.

Let’s elaborate this judgement one by one:
If we looking on the oh-so-famous rice-sowing techniques Japan famous of, or the Confucianism and religious value they now carry, have we ever question which country came with that idea first?
I believe the technique originally came from China
Or the facts that Japan also learn about governmental, political and legal system; not to mention the army and navy, system of education and even manners. How Japan now also has already implemented German method of applying medicine is the actual prove of Europeanization.
How modern method of living an urban style that America has introduced, like listening to heavy music and making everything portable, to Western-style rooms and furniture or clothing style, that has alternate their traditional Kimono for daily appearances, now common to be found in streets of Japan.

Okay, people might think that this is an extremely common thing that happened in the modernization of a country.

But the unique thing I found about Japan is this:
Japan has now successfully improved foreign-ideas into their original idea, and then re-exports it to the world.

Have you ever wonder, even though Japanese is not the one who originally invented radio, clock or flashlight, Japanese IS the first one who combined it all into one commodity?
Or how their railway department is the fastest AND most punctual train around the world, although the first railway system were invented in Europe?

Foreigner thought speaking, I think this is all due to Japanese tend to develop something based on future expectation that they drew, which might happened to them.
Seeing they suffered with demographic crisis as a country full of island, they build a modernized railway system. Seeing the possible needs of automatic workforce in the future, they build human-like robots. Seeing the possibility of major natural disaster, they developed evacuation guide system based on GPS technology and wireless network communications that they adapted from western country. The natures of Japanese societies, which planted for centuries and has been their core value of life, become the master piece of their country development.

But Japan was not resistant to extreme changes.
With recent Shinzo Abe decision to shift their pacifism military constitution, to finally free on supporting allied forces in conflicts after being absent from battle for 70 years since World War II, I do think that even this country who has been famous for keeping their identity and values right in their chest, is also scared of the bigger power.

Anyway, I bet it will be fascinating to watch why and how Japan face this changes, with history of how they could retain their independency while incorporating elements from competing countries, and even alternate those to be advantageous to them.

As one European once said,
“Japan has adopted all of our new inventions and discoveries, has tested all systems found in Europe and has applied them in a different form, altering them as much as it was necessary to make their country more powerful.

Japan used Europe as the ladder to climb onto the top of the Far East”

This small country really is, the baby lion of this world we’re living in.

Crisis, Economy, Europe, Opinion, Thought


July 9th, the Independence day of Argentine.

I saw it on my calendar out of sudden yesterday, and it triggers my thought on, once again, Greece.
Home of the great soccer players of all time, the tasty wine, and eccentric tobacco, yet this Latin country reminded people nowadays a lot of with the homeland of philosophers.

Maybe due to the same catastrophe they had revolving this same damn thing.

And interdependency towards bigger power, who acts as invisible hand yet successfully, controlled every single economic decision they wanted to take, direct or indirectly.

Aside from that, Argentina has been linked to Greece most of the time due to their similarity in so many different aspects:
Medium-sized economy, trapped into ‘overvalued’ fixed currency (as Argentina has pegged their Peso to US$, making them exposed to America’s monetary policy) and also the similarity on how chaotic their corruptions history is, long-list of tax evasion, the hiding of their true budget deficit and little progress in labor market and structural reform.
They also both loose competitiveness towards neighboring country and uncontrollable consumption growth leads them to an insignificant public debt enlargement.
What different now, is the fact that Greece now a Union, which they don’t own their own currency while Argentine is a sovereign country, which means they have an option to leave the pegging system, default their debt and devalue their currency, despite the entire painful consequences they should face.
Their government suddenly has power to confiscate people’s money, people have no money to repay their dollar-nominated debt with peso on their wallet, ATMs running out of cash to withdraw, people living within poverty line arose tremendously, and series of politicians forced to step down their chair, are only the small glimpse of the reality Argentine should face after altering their currency.

And it might be the future Greece will face later on.

For the longest time, the options of Greece getting out of Euro seems so taboo, regarding on the probability of contagion to other troubling country inside EU (Italy, Portugal and Spain) and how badly it will affect to EU financial market in the future, since the credibility of EU has been ‘cheated’ by their own members, not to mention of how much France, German and UK as biggest creditors for Greece will lose.
The cost of Greece of leaving Euro for the rest of EU members is enormous, and Greece has to start assessing this measurement by their own for their own future.

For Greece itself, leaving Euro will be disastrous, knowing their lack of export commodities, which if compared to Argentina with their agriculture commodity that now has been the main export goods in China, is nothing.
Bank run, re-domination of assets and liabilities, and abandon from financial market will be even tougher since Greece has belonged to union in the past and have no currency.
Not to mention how their decision will trigger social tension in other EU members, especially their main exports partner Germany and Italy, and possibly killing their main source of income from traveling sectors, since more than 90% of their visitors came from EU members.
Hatred, at the end will take their roles, and business would not be just business anymore.
Who want to visit a country, who “stole” their money right before their eyes?

So after voted no to more austerity package, Greece now left with only, I don’t know, 100 Million Euro, or about 4 Euro per person.
4 Euro per person sounds completely insane, but that’s the consequences of rejecting austerity package that gives them room to “breathe”.
That money did not even enough for food in a day, dear God.

So what, should all Politicians in Greece do and scratch their notebook, after learning from Argentine past?
Quick political restructuring is THE core important thing to do in Greece; learning from what Argentine also did in the past.
Transforming not only a clean, transparent political institution with committed taxpayer is needed. Political leader in Greece must be open, meaning they needed to expose ALL measurement they have assess in order to open people’s mind in Greece on what options they have right now and what are the losses.
By this, society will know their own capacity, not just creating riots and social unrest that pushed back even more investors, and understanding this means that they needed to commit to such options that their political parties choose later on.
Clearing what they committed to, which questioned by European Leader and annoyed me somehow, is important to also gain trusts from their neighbor, since there’s no instant solution for each options and EU are their main, and might be their only source of help.

In my humblest and rarest opinion, I think what Greece all need now is a miraculous European-made Marshall Plan.
A recovery program that could re build a whole continent; even after the most disastrous war in the century. Imagine, if Europe welfare could be restored and rose into one of the most developed industry after 4 years of bombardment and total meltdown, why don’t implement the same aid to Greece, which only handled one troublesome country?
Programs should focus on rebuilding, NOT only cutting public expenditure that, at the end make Greece economy even smaller and smaller and waiting to be collapsed at any time.
Gather up all economic experts, top social workers, teachers around Europe to develop new Greece, with better sense of mind.

One thing for sure that Greece should (have already) realize now, is that there is NO such thing as debt relieves.
One simply could not forget that others wrong doing has made them suffer, paying higher tax so that others could lend more.

Good deeds are easy to erase, but wrong doing will forever be your debt.

Future, Human Project, Live, People, Thought

Children of Men

Have been experiencing an euphoria over an accomplished project and seeing couples of children running through small yards, this movie is all I could remember about.
I have watch this movie about 7 years ago.
This is not a typical hollywood movie, with beautiful love story, mesmerising views, or top-rated actors. I don’t think they even ever hit box office chart. This movie’s quite dark, no love story whatsoever, and to top it all, they twists the most unfavourable topics that year to encounter from the first second the movie rolls: End of the world, with reality so close to what people outside television lens living under their feet. But until now, i still could recall almost every scene that this movie displayed.
Basically, Children of Men told about when 3 pillars of human being are collapsed and the tip of the road is within eyesight. When human development, economic growth and environmental sustainability are perished, and you saw it crumble piece to piece every second of your life, don’t you want the world to just stop right this moment?

When infertility could be spared no more, soil could give you not even piece of nutrients, and people with no job, no sole aim of living, only survival with guns take over their life to create power over people, is it right to call the human race are close enough to extinction?
Well, this is not actually the topic i was going to write about. Too long for introduction.

I was going to write about a nowadays movement, which i remember i’ve talked about with 2 of my travel mates on top of a moving boat out of nowhere, that i think is constructive enough to prove ourselves that we, without doubt are still the Children of Men.
The movement is about constructing chosen village to be a model village, with true purpose not only to develop, but to make it sustain.
To integrate economic, social and environmental issues in all societal spheres and levels on short and long term basis is, lets be honest, the hardest part of this movement. I knew one in my university, in couple of different university social projects, Bayer, Unilever and other companies that might had not get wider spread as these companies did.
So can’t we dream a little dream today, for the sake of one Sunday afternoon, being spent in a totally different environment that made me think beyond what i’m usually and capable of doing?
What if, what IF, every single non profit organisations, education institutions, and corporations, have true calling (and courage) to take a bullet and choose one village, then construct a sustainable model village?
What if, every model village developers have perspective to build an independent society, not only to conduct reconstruction of infrastructures and environmental values, but also education, entrepreneurship character building and health programs, in order to enhance opportunity of sustainable living in society involved?
What if, these model village programs, eventually drive successfully and could actually foster the sustainability of human being itself?
Sustainable village in my opinion, could actually achieve a decrease in poverty by enhancing the economic growth of the village.
You can do it by providing a cash transfer, or you can encourage people to explore and develop people’s skill in hope that they can make their own business to trigger the economic growth.
Or, you can decrease health issues, by ensuring nutrition and prevent diseases, making sure that every infants, babies and future generations have a proper living.
There’s a lot of aspect you can change, from economic view, health issues, environmental sustainability, education and so on, when you have the power to actually, brought change to a handful of people, and alter a generation.
It’s a beautiful thing, you see, when people with power and money, could pick one societies to convert, and works it Pay-It-Forwardly (this word not even exist) so one by one, the entire degrading societies and living spaces are flourishing AND infecting other villages after they are capable on walking by themselves. When you see other beings changed to a better one, when you can see natural resources and place we are living in secured and harvested, when nothing but good things are outspread within your gaze, will people be ready for heaven since they’re already living in one?
Of course, there’s no such thing as perfect idea. There’s always obstacles behind our way. Barriers over political stability around area we’re developing, stability over developers dedication towards program, and even characteristics of the community will eventually take trolls on how much our programs could actually working.
How could you create changes, when the mindset of the society are likely to perceived a model village as an income effect or even charity, or they don’t even have interest in what you’re doing, hence the sense of ownership over aspects that being developed in the village are absent? Sustainable model village is a complex sustainable development project due to its interrelated development in human’s life pillars, which means that model village could not be forced to certain societies if those societies itself did not show any participation or being hard to cooperate.
That is why i do think that to make this programs work, the most important thing is public participation. Village community and development agents should stand on equal terms, which means development agents act ONLY as facilitators and introducing technical know-how and other needed resources to community, while community itself who takes the lead role in decision-making and implementation of development activities. They will eventually use their local resources and popped every single problems that arose in their daily life and this is excellent, since they are the one who will continue this program on in the future.
All this programs need is this one primal word: dedication.
Dedication from developers to actually stand as equal until there is no social level diversification with targeted society, dedication from developers to build public awareness towards issues they brought up and involving societies in decision making, dedication to NEVER stop, until community could actually stand still on their own.
Bringing changes towards people while also preserved their cultural values and tradition are tricky. I realise from the beginning of my pencil wrote this as my ultimate bucket-list, since to achieve the core value of this movement is close to impossibility from case to case i’ve read.
But don’t you think it will be worth trying for (not only once) in your life?

Crisis, Economy, Europe, Random, Thought

Everything’s Magic

This world always rolls on two sides of coins, head or tail.

Sometimes you’ve been placed higher than clouds, some other time reality just push you right to the ground.

I’ll remind you first, that this post, will be a comparably long and have no point, like the entire posts I’ve made, actually. I’ve gotta got a break, you know, and writing is my home-based point.

I remember, back when I was in University, one of the most talk-about gossip/news/disastrous headline was this: Greek Bankruptcy. I was intrigued with the news, with everybody in the class, or even the whole country if I’m not exaggerated too much, already speaking about that topic, knew everything from the beginning to the crumbling point, commenting everyday what should or should have Greece done to their country, and so on.

Basically, I’m the outsider AND a foreigner, have no attachment to the rather complicated country, yet completely intrigued to know further as my social circle have totally going nuts around this Greece related everything.

So I started my research, through books, magazine, classes, news and even online European gossips.

And I’m sucked into the story. Real. Hard.

Like, the research is intoxicating; sometimes the soil purpose of it is forgotten. Founding your personal pleasure in the weirdest discovery is, well…joyful.

And now the attachment to Greece story is inevitable.

When I read the recent story, while the Grexit idea still came out everywhere I clicked, when Merkel swinging her fists to the air for fighting the existence of Greece in EU still aired on the news, when riots and demonstration of Greek still the major headline on BBC or Bloomberg, 3 years after leaving Europe feels like a second.

I think the main reason behind this Greece fiasco is this: (I’ll try to describe it in a riddle, might be possibly incredibly wrong, or it might luckily the reality)

“When the Giant looked for the Dwarf, whether to show people that they could get along together despite their differences, or for each sides to take some advantage from each other, sometimes the Giant forgot how tall they were and the dwarfs forgot how tiny they were.

And they kept pretending.
Pretending to be someone they are not.

Pretending that they don’t have so much, they act like in shortage.

Pretending that they have so much, they act excessively, beyond what’s they’re capable and allowed to

The ground idea of European Union, which is to unite big, powerful country, with smaller, periphery countries, to build an Economic Giant that could compete with the superpower USA, are wrecked, when ‘share and restrain’ habits are not flourished enough within EU countries. Big country shall and must share, while small countries shall and must pull themselves out from excessive shopping.

This, is when Politics, are coming to deliver a total havoc in the already complicated arrangement. The currency may be Euro, but wallets are national and parliaments will not easily share their purse, people said. When rather small countries create troubles and somehow, brought a big troublesome wave to bigger countries, powerful power will tend to push them, to behave as they wanted to be, when adapting to a structured way-of thinking like modernized countries is not as instant as printing a guideline. Educating, not punishing, is the key of a reform, and giving a lifetime lesson, needs a generation.

Solution I’ve been thinking about in this structural reform through eyes of a foreigner, not an-economic expert, and especially a youngster?

  1. Urgently reforming the pension system to ensure its long-term financial viability. As pension problem is one of the most critical point in Greece budget decision, which people have been mocked around each day as long as I remember, Greece needed to increase their effective retirement age to balance out other EU countries retirement age. Extend the period over which pension benefits are calculated to the entire working life and extend the number of years required to qualify for a full pension are needed. Productivity are valued, when retirement are honored within moderation.
  2. Simplifying and modernizing tax system within Greece. As the major problems found in Greece are the social avoidance towards tax and lack of force from government to this violations, unifying the administration of taxes and social security contributions, with the support of neighboring countries is needed to drive Greece fiscal conditions away from falling to uncontrollable level, as fiscal policy is the most important economic tools EU countries had individually now when currency is untouchable and pegged.
  3. Improving the process of budget preparation. Problems arise within Greece is the problem of budget allocation. Most of previous public budget in Greece are spend in sectors that might not need the actual amount of funds, like military spending that should be downsized, so moving swiftly toward a program–based budget and a multi–year budgetary framework, will probably imposed an expenditure control. Not to mention, the need of trusted parliament budget committee as responsible party in the field of maintaining certain budget guideline (I search that In certain countries, this might work to tighten budget spending)
  4. Tightening a control over public spending. Proceed rapidly with reforms of rationalizing and limiting the wage line along with further increase in transparency of recruitment and limit regularization. Greece needs to enhance a strong budgetary control over public entities and restructure unprofitable state enterprises. Not to mention to clear out completely politization in State-Owned Enterprises (SOEs) in order to make them more professional and accountable. Greece had made too much unreasonable SOE that contributed to a big amount of public spending, so with carefully limiting SOE, and focusing public spending in only public entities sectors, while increased effectiveness in the rest of Greece SOE, will make a reasonable economic reforms in Greece economic structure.
  5. Raising labor market flexibility and tackle poverty by targeting existing employment subsidies on the most disadvantaged youth and reduce employment protection legislation. Ensuring that minimum wage does not act as a disincentive for hiring young people because this source of employment is the key of Greece growth in the future. Greece has a LOT of competition from neighboring countries with similar economic condition, so there’s no point on rising wage line while other countries could produce the same manufactures with lower price. The goals of a union is to accelerate labor’s movement through a simplified administration boundaries, so when back in the days you only compete with people with the same colors as you, now everybody in your continent will be fighting the same chair. Price, inevitably, will be the main barriers. Be different and valuable, or set yourself lower, as I may harshly say.
  6. Enhance the effectiveness of competition policy by reducing the administrative burden to start-ups and the barriers to entrepreneurship. Liberalize professional services; proceed with privatization and foster competition in network industries. Introduce a centrally led review of stock of laws and regulations for competitive effects with revisions to laws and regulations that unnecessarily restrain competition.
  7. Strengthen efficiency of the education system as representatives of future Greece growth. Develop and modernizing the childcare sector through betters regulation and increased supply of services to schools. Improve the curriculum in secondary and vocational education, enhance competition in the higher education sector and introduce reforms to improve the way education institutions are financed, by looking at different options that emphasize the focus on diversification of resources. Tackling possible future problems from the roots of education is a major concern for stopping the cycle of crisis happened again.
  8. Political Economy of Reform with strong mandate to fight corruption. As corruption and avoidance towards clean accounting reports within Greek government has been the major issues of this crisis, efforts to increase confidence in the management and also confidence in the body of EU can be approached by enhancing transparency and accountability. Gaining public trust in reforms programs that Greek government are trying to proposed could be initiate Greek’s trust over government and further reform programs will be easier to conduct in Greece.

I think people need to consider that it’s not all Greece mistakes from the beginning. My mind still could not bare the idea of how Greek governments has pretended that their public finances are in the right order and reforms were under way for several years, while European Union along with its member pretended to believe them. Could they not sense the trouble, the made-up financial statement, while big economy countries had series of economic expert as chairman?

At the end, I believe that there is always hope for Greece and EU in this crisis, because aside from the entire crisis, Greece still one country that introduce us to whole new democratic thinking. Strengthening Greece growth in the most reasonable and economic sectors are still critical in this point of view and it extremely needed EU members and also the rest of the world help, but the most mandatory thing is Greece efforts to put a strict discipline and honest government because after all, this is their future and their involvement is supreme.

This foreigner is completely and utterly bored, so bare in mind and forgive my messed-up thought and words!

Hope, Life, Random, Regret, Thought, Words

Ticking Time

Which one will you choose, if you have to choose with no turning around, between these two choices:

The right one in the wrong time, Or the wrong one in the right time?

Time’s a bitch, people said. Some things that should be wonderful in the past, when it occurred again in the future, might seem to be a blah, or awful somehow.

Some people that you begged for in time’s needed, now might seem to interfere your life too much, or might be accompany by others which, as miserable as it might sound, is not you and it sucks.

Time is NOT the main villain here, in my opinion.

Human did. We change as time goes by, time’s just relatively moving along side our lifetime pan.

Maybe in the past, those wonderful things that you WISH to happen to you, only satisfy you temporarily when those things are the only things matter in that period of time. Appearance, style, score test, those things might be your whole world in your teen age to earn respectable social status, but as you grew, is it still as important?

Or you grew to notice that, the actual social environment you need, does not even care about your perfected appearance, your quirky style, your ups-and-down score test. They need reality.

Same as people. Back in the days, maybe those certain people are a no-go for you.

They lack of this, they don’t go along with you, they are beyond you, and so many other reasons that set you apart with certain someone. But as the world rolling, are you really needing those capabilities you’ve been criticizing them all along?

Or you actually need them, just to balance out your life, as you now recognize that nothing’s perfect, nothing’s immaculate, nothing will ever going as you plan.

And this moment, this very moment, when you realize that those things are what you need, or you don’t care less, the ticking time will be your worst enemy, or as we may say, a bitch.

What if, when you realize that you need something, or someone, or some spare time, those things already belong to someone else, or even don’t want to be related any further with you?

What if those things are already broken to pieces, without you have any clue whatsoever how to turn it right what it started?

What if, everything else’s perfect, except timing?

Would you consider to let your ego take over, fight for what you believe fits you right, without considering others who get hurt, or left behind?

Or you stick to what YOUR heart told you, that nothing’s good ever come up to those who hurt others?

That good things always wait, always patient, until time finally turn around and finally recognize you, and choose you over everything else.